+25th Jan 1988.
+20 years old
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I guess everyone has one of those days,feeling unwanted,unappreciated or misunderstood.Okay,it can be simply put across as Emo.
I'm feeling emo now,on a bright sunny Wednesday afternoon,even as i'm listening to 'The Lion Sleeps Tonight'.
I saw this on someone's nick,i can't remember who,but someone.
'Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?Saying something and wishing you had not,or saying nothing but wishing you had.'
I guess either one is gonna make you 'urm dui'.But as for me,i'd choose saying something and wishing you had not.That's because i realised sometimes,the things i said are very redundant.
No time for jokes now,it's all serious business.
I had a conversation with * just now and i don't know why after that conversation,it just made me feel so bad about myself.For all i know,i'm never that judgemental person to anyone especially to my friends to say the least.It's just that i'll never seem to get the 'just keep your opinion to yourself' thing into my thick skull.
Like sometimes,an innocent conversation can turn into something so..drastic.And it's all because of my stupid comments.Seriously,i should learn already.
And then it comes to people whom we label as Friends.
I'm sure all of us have 'different degree' of friends right?You can't be pouring out your sorrows to an acquaintant or be formal to your closer friends,right?So i have come to terms with all these best friend/true friend shit long ago.
But sometimes you can't help but to feel like shit when your supposed 'best friend' just puts you off when you need the person the most.Isn't it sad if your so-called 'best friend' is almost never there when you need them?Or even if they are,and it's pretty damn obvious you want someone to talk to but they're so preoccupied with their shits and when you say,'ok,nvm den',they reply you with the most annoying answer ever,'oh ok',or even worse,'k'.
Is it that hard to show a tiny weeny bit of concern?Tell me lah,what are friends for?
I've always tried my best to be there for my friends when they need someone to talk to even though i may not give constructive advices,and that's because i know how sucky the feeling is when nobody's there to lend you a listening ear.
Sometimes i just wish i'm that kind of person who can live alone,eat alone,talk alone..be a lonesome person like you don't need anyone.
And i think people around me are trying their best to mould me into that kind of person,soon.
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