+25th Jan 1988.
+20 years old
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Was out with Sam today.Initially wanted to Wii again but decided to go Marina Square instead.
Ate at HKCafe;played arcade(like yah~hahaa!)then off to watch Slumdog Millionaire and my goodness,that show is fantastic!Totally deserved the awards they have won!I mean,the child actors were really awesome.Kudos!
Media Fiesta.Some media thingy where they invited 3 of the ah lian looking singtel grid girls.oh gosh,i certainly hope this year's grid girls will be of much higher standards.Like,seriously.
You know i used to think to myself how nice it would be if i were the only child.No such thing as siblings rivalry and such but that was before i was on better term with my elder sis.
I believe all of us who have siblings would have gone through the stage where you would quarrel/argue/fight about anything and everything.Unleashing all your childish/fierce/unknown sides and whatnot.
And then as you get older,when your maturity reached to a certain level,you would somehow or another learn to forgive and forget,to know when to listen,to know when to apologise when you know you're at fault,to know you need to communicate to sustain a relationship,to know to be more responsible for your own actions and the list goes on.
I'm not saying that nobody quarrels when they get older.It's just lesser.
For my elder sis and my case,i guess we just kind of let it go.Sometimes when i think back about our bad past(our quarrels/our really really bad terms with each other),i'm just really very thankful and happy that we are getting along so damn fine right now!I really am!It was something i thought which will never happen.
I've always hope the same miracle will happen to my younger sis and me but you know what,i'm more than definite it will never happen.
I really envy those people who can treat their younger sibling so well,be so close to them,cuddle them and you know,just being such a loving older sibling to the younger ones.I've always wanted to be that but my younger sis has never given me a chance to.Or rather,given herself a chance to show people that she deserved to be shower with love like that.
Her mentality is just,i don't know.It's just something i can't stand her.
She's friggin 17 but she acts like a 13-year-old.
I get it.
'She's the youngest'
'She's still young'
'Treat her better'
'Don't bully her'
'She will listen'
'Give in to her'
I don't act like that when i was 17!?Did they excuse me like how they excuse her when i was 17?All i ever got when i was 17 was,
'You're old enough to think for yourself'
'Be more responsible for your own actions'
'You're not a small girl anymore,grow up!'
And now that i'm 21,i still have to shoulder that extra responsibility on making sure that the younger one is being taken care of when i had to constantly look out for myself when i was her age?!And even getting scolded because of her doings and not even my f*ing fault at all?
I don't even know what or how to feel anymore.
I just hope someone will friggin scream at her or just give her a big tight slap to wake her up from her bloody dreamland.
So sick and tired of it!
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